uggggh

i. hate. throat. talkers.

you know.  people who can't seem to get their voice into their mouth before they start speaking, so the sound issues forth in a raspy, guttural growl.  i can't stand it.  TALK WITH YOUR LIPS, NOT WITH YOUR LARYNX!

law school has an abnormally high concentration of throat talkers.  even now, i should be paying attention to risk assessment in environmental law.  but i can't.  i am physically incapable.  all of my concentration is thrown off by the auditory assault my ears are being subjected to.

it makes me feel like this is just flapping in the breeze:

unacceptable.

my favorite word is

wish.

storms

i love storms.  especially in the summer.  being from a desert, they seem so decadent and are always answered prayers.  i have been in salt lake for the first time this summer, and, therefore, have missed an awesome monsoon season at jacob lake, which i'm pretty sad about.

there's nothing like seeing those black clouds roll in.

waiting, sometimes for days, to see if they have enough in them to actually bring the water, or if they're only show.

watching as it slowly makes its way to you:

and then loving every minute of it when the rain does come.

there's something singular about the stillness that falls, muting the light, stifling the sound, magnifying the smell that i identify with grey until that grey is spilling from the sky, scenting the ponderosas with vanilla.  

nothing i know of beats a good summer storm.  except, perhaps, the sunsets that follow.

(thanks, melindie, for the pics.  they wrote this for me.)

kinds

there are two kinds of boys in this world: those who love basketball and those who love soccer.

baby, cuz i'm a spy

do you think i could use my legal training to become a spy?  (based on my results, i'd say i'm a natural.)

do you think it has made me sneakier, more clandestine?


Espionage or spying involves a government or individual obtaining information that is considered secret or confidential without the permission of the holder of the information. Espionage is inherently clandestine, as it is taken for granted that it is unwelcome and, in many cases illegal and punishable by law. It is a subset of intelligence gathering—which otherwise may be conducted from public sources and using perfectly legal and ethical means.


how about better dressed/accessorized?

has it given me a better theme song?

has the socratic method taught me to be more charming, nervy, and quicker on my feet?

finding legal jobs in the current economical climate is more difficult than ever.  so, i'm just trying to stay aware of all my options.

waiting on the Lord

what a beautiful sentiment.  what a vital principle.

waiting on the Lord, as mary so precisely identified, means becoming His handmaid.  it means being His servant, His helpmeet, His steward, and, as such, being willing to do what He asks.  whether you want to or not.  a lot of the time, i find that i do not.  but waiting on the Lord means that you do it anyway.  and not because you have to, but because it's what the Lord has asked, and that trumps everything else.  

it also means simply waiting, patiently.  it means being still and being calm and going about life as usual until the Lord brings some change or some answer or some something to you.

i am better at option one.  by far.  that alternative allows me to work and to do, to be an active part of the Lord's process, to give something to the Lord.  when i am asked to wait, in the sense of biding my time, on the Lord, i am asked to trust that He is giving something to me.  i am asked to surrender my control and have faith that His unseen means will bring my desired ends.  i have to have courage enough to weather His storms without knowing where they will lead, and hope enough to believe it will be somewhere good.  this kind of heart does not come easily to me.

Psalms 27:14 "Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord."

hasta luego

tomorrow is my last day at immigration court.  i'm pretty sad about that.  i have loved it there.