i'm not going to disneyland

but a lot of really cool girls that i know are.  tomorrow.

this is just another grievance that i intend to add to the ever-growing-list caused and perpetuated by law school.  it steals my money and my time and my heart and my fun.  i need all of those things.  and law school has them

the result of this pending lack of disney vacation is that i have gone to california in my mind.  in the middle of environmental law class, as i should be taking notes, i am really watching youtube videos of  the alice in wonderland ride (on silent of course).  last night, when i should have been paying attention to the words in my evidence text droning on and on and on about hearsay, i was really flying over london with peter pan.  rather than answering my constitutional law professor's question about protected first amendment speech, i sang, "yo ho, yo ho, a pirate's life for me."  (ok, that one might be an exaggeration...)  and instead of researching how fire law has effected the kaibab plateau, i'm really searching for plane tickets that will take me to my childhood dreams.

disneyland is wonderful.  it, like christmas morning and ice cream trucks and halloween, is a direct conduit back to childhood, back to those days when to play was the thing and law school wasn't even a word in my vocabulary.

soccer

not playing soccer is my biggest, longest, and deepest life regret.  when i was little, i chose ballet over soccer.  i don't necessarily blame myself.  i mean, think of a ballerina's accessories: tutus, ballet shoes, leotards of varying colors, tights, buns.  they turn a girl's head. (it does seem a little bit out of character for me to pick pink over dirt and grass stains, though.  i guess every girl is allowed to contradict herself).  but, i didn't stick with ballet...which is another regret.  i should have continued dancing.  i shouldn't have scoffed at my dance teacher when she told me to try out for dance company.  but, really, i should have played soccer.

i didn't, though.  i didn't play soccer.  and i have to make my peace with that.  lately, however, these are what my google searches have yielded:

1) http://www.soccertools.com/soccer-rules.html  (good ol' fifa)

2)

3)  preparation.  just in case my soccer day ever does come.

4) http://www.jes-soccer.com/plays.html

5) A hat trick in soccer occurs when a player scores three goals in one game. The term "hat trick" in sports is used to refer to a certain accomplishment by a player during competition, with the feat usually involving three of something — such as goals scored — and varying according to the sport. It is believed that the term originated in cricket in the 19th century, but it has come to be used in many other sports, including soccer and hockey. There also are variations of a hat trick in soccer that involve a player scoring three goals in certain ways, such as consecutively within the same period or by striking the ball in certain ways.

6)

                  -ballet shoe soccer cleat?

7)

oh, soccer.  i wish i wasn't such a wanna be.

one of the best moments of my life, hands down, came my senior year of high school.  i was talking to one of the stars of the girl's soccer team and she said, "katie, you should have played soccer.  you would have been a baller."  sometimes i repeat that to myself when my soccer dreams keep me up at night.

#missedmycalling